Sew This Was Supposed to be Fun

But it isn’t. As I have said in a previous post, it has been three years, exactly, since this all began.

I find myself in a state of hatred and revenge. I want to hurt and cripple the business that caused all of this in the first place.

I thought it was my job, and my place, to do this and to bring an end to the tyranny that we have seen over these last years.

Every time I stitch another zipper into place I throw up. Every time I cut out pieces, I throw up. Every time I think about it I want to throw up.

You could say that I have allowed the power to take me over and maybe that is right.

But I am not a vengeful person even though I have acted with vengeance.

I acted for all of you my puppets who felt betrayed, bullied, ripped off, stolen from, manipulated, treated with contempt, made to hide, made to silence yourselves lest you get sued.

We have at our disposal a powerful weapon of communication and with any weapon some will use it for good or evil.

We have seen the evil side and my response was to fight fire with fire and take down a ship that is an empty vessel, except it isn’t.

I cannot go on with this hatred and need for revenge any longer. It is making me physically and emotionally sick again and it is just not the right thing to do.

I have to let this go, after three long years of carrying it on my shoulders, it is time to put down this burden by handing it over to the universe to deal with as it sees fit.

It is not up to me to right this wrong anymore. I have done my part and have been left out here to continue to fight everyday, but the fight I find myself in is to keep myself driven in hatred and revenge. I am paddling upstream. I am going against who I am.

I am not a fighter although at times I will fight. I am not a hater although at times I have hated.

I have written 181 other posts and this is my last at 182. You have all the information you need to make an informed decision about who you choose to support and follow and believe.

I have other projects I need to move onto, and this cannot be the one that crushes me back into the ground for no good purpose.

If you believe in good and evil in the world then hear me now, evil has won.

And if I don’t surrender to that fact, I will become as evil as my enemy and that is not who I am.

I now hand this over. I feel I am letting all of you down and you will judge me for being weak. So be it. I do not have it in me to continue to be malicious and right. I know I am right. But right and wrong are of no consequence anymore. It is what it is and I cannot be a part of it any longer.

The patterns will be available for a very short time before the whole site is taken down.

Carry on. Let fear guide you to the place that you should have been all along.